i'm so freaking pissed about the whole arod ordeal in the news again today. what's gay is that the original test was supposed to be anonymous. so in the first place, arod even being mentioned is a breach of his confidentiality. this story needs to be dropped. it doesn't matter if arod did steroids in high school or what side effects his teammates saw. this dude is the highest paid baseball player ever. of course he is going to have people who are going to rat on him and try and "get at him." i don't understand why congress is involved in this either. they need to use that money for more useful tasks. if you can't catch these dudes in the act of doing the illegal act, just let it go. the gov't has had to raid these different pharmaceutical companies just to get evidence (after the fact).
bj penn is training with marv marinovich at sportslab in california. >i'm going out there in september. i've been on the cutting edge of fitness for about 1 1/2 now. i saw citizen cope live last night in auburn. he only played 7 songs, but he was UNBELIEVABLE. his voice is amazing live and he just jams. i'll prob. go see him in telluride in june. jam to this.
i threw today and felt 98%. i had great velocity and accuracy to be at 17 weeks and change. i couldn't be happier with my shoulder right now. i hope it continues to heal well.
i've been doing my trial run at flip this house here at the trailer. here is a shot of the new den.
my chiropractor is dr. hurst peacock. the freaking man. he is an integral part of me being an athlete. here is his website. anyway, he gave me an autobiography to read about thurman fleet. i believe that thurman came up with the "zone" concept, but he also developed something called concept therapy. you can google him if he interests you. the biggest piece i took from the book was the care that thurman paid to the mind, the body, and the soul. i've begun to implement that in my life. sometimes i get too one sided whether it be too much body, or too much soul, etc.
this is a great song. the video sucks. it's crazy how talented some of these kids are. miley cyrus, jonas brothers, taylor swift, solja boy, jesse mcartney. crazy. i love the lyrics to this song, and it rings true in my life every day. i haven't heard a song this good lyrically in a long time. songs have always made me feel an emotion. i can't really explain what this song does for me, but i'll say this. i've been feeling this coming for a little bit. i love when stuff like that happens.
i feel like telling a story. this particular story came to me the other day as i was driving down the road. i was 13. i was playing in an all star tournament at shades mtn. park. i was wearing #7, playing shortstop. i have to share a secret at this point. ever since i can remember, i have been able to tell if a batter was going to hit a ball at me on the ground. some guys just had a swing that i could tell the way they angled that they were going to hit it at me. this particular batter had this 'stance'. there was a runner on first. he hit the ball and to this day, all i remember is seeing the ball down and reaching to my right. then the crowd went wild. i've tried for 9 years now to remember how i fielded the ball, how i threw it to second base. i can't. it was all instincts. that was the first time in my life i actually was aware of my instincts. i guess that was the first step in me honing my instincts to where they are today. test your instincts. if they pass, BELIEVE in them. they're all you got. and on top of that, hone them all the time, b/c you have to stay sharp!
i did this for my boy chuck liddell. i love chuck. this is my tribute. he is my favorite fighter, but he is now retired. so i've been walking around like this for a couple days. it's rather odd.
next wednesday in auburn ben harper is playing with citizen cope, for free. ya digg?
whenever i try and start a blog, it takes me a little time to catch my stride. on friday i ran 4 miles. on saturday i threw. on sunday i worked out. on monday i swam. today i worked out, not really. haha. after i warmed up, i could have gone home. i just felt tired and weak. i decided to shorten things up and still get something in. i decided to do assisted pull ups and dips, along with some other exercises. i had to wait on these two skinny girls who were using this machine. come to find out, they were using the same weight as me. i was working out right beside the machine and one of the girls walked up. she looked at the pin, looked at me, looked at the pin, and looked confused. it was a great laugh for the day. tomorrow i HAVE to take a day off. i hate it. o well. i bout 2 and 1/2 dozen eggs today for $2.00. clutch! what else is clutch is the 20 pound bag of epsom salt bath soak i bought from san francisco bath salt company. i think i am going to hit up two of those baths tomorrow. recovery, recovery, speaking of that, this is how i sit, not feeling too hot today. have to have some peach detox tea.
on to the quiz:
the answer is that britney, justin, and christina were all in the mickey mouse club together.
just read this. found it on digg.com from there, i clicked on the daily beast dot com and came across this. i was curious about the one thing. at-least one of those couples that i saw was engaged. which one of the dudes wears the ring? how the hell do you figure that out? that's all. o and this, "mark jacobs aviators and the v neck." haha
riesling is more of an experience for me than red wine. interesting. please don't accuse me of bui. blogging under the influence. haha. if you know me, you know that most of the time i can be found in a song. i can always be found in some form or the other in rascal flatt's "these days." speaking of my boys there new album came out today (7th). lately these quotes have been resounding in my head.
"Lost and insecure, You found me, you found me, Lying on the floor, Surrounded, surrounded, Why’d you have to wait? Where were you, where were you? Just a little late You found me, You found me. In the end. Everyone ends up alone. Losing her, The only one who’s ever known, Who I am, Who I’m not, and who I want to be, No way to know. How long she will be next to me." - the fray
"You can tell me all your thoughts, about the stars that fill polluted skies. And show me where you run to, when no one's left to take your side. But don't tell me where the road ends, cause I just don't wanna know, No I don't wanna know." - thriving ivory
these lyrics are just too good.
i had to shut down my throwing program for a week. i felt good the first day i threw. the 2 other days i haven't felt good. i have just felt really weak. i have to do a lot of light weight and band exercises with my shoulders. it just feels that i can't do that and throw right now. i'll throw this weekend and see how things feel. following celebrities on twitter is rather interesting. i saw the new world order mentioned in the news on friday for the first time. i believe the first time it was in the news was when bush's dad said it in one of his addresses'. it falls in line with the plans of the Illuminati. if you don't believe in them then they are fixing to put themselves int he spotlight with this. i have to get to bed, but a quiz for the night. in the next video there are 4 people present. 3 of them are related in some way. if you know the answer, then answer.
goodnight.
p.s. when you came over after my surgery, you brought ice cream. you said, "i didn't want to come and not bring anything." what you didn't know was that you brought something, YOU! and i'm forever grateful. you know how much that day meant to me. xo
i've always wondered how open to be on here. i'm not the most open person to walk the earth. it just takes trust and loyalty for me to tell people things and i've found those two qualities rare these days. for the past 6 months my life has been in despair. i've had a hard time every single day. i'm being "pulled" out of auburn by my parents. it seems they've always been pulling me out of something just to put me somewhere else. i'm tired of being embarrassed about decisions i have to live with that other people make. so i'm going to take this one solo. i've set before myself nearly the hardest goal i could imagine. i'm trying to come back after labrum surgery and four years off, and play professional baseball. this is like mount everest for me. it's like the hardest task i could set before myself, and yet it's still my dream. it's tough to set out and be on this journey with no support. there's times when it would be nice to be able to have someone pat you on the back and be there for you. since high school i've learned so much about myself. one thing i've learned is that i perform the best operating under pressure. especially when i have the pressure of the highest goal i can think of. along the way i hope that i meet people who think like me and people who don't. i hope to meet open minded, kind hearted people as well. this is the toughest time in my life. it's forcing me to learn to be positive. what i've learned through this is that the soul has to be pursuing a passion. i'm not wired to be put through this course and that ringer and into a certain position to be successful. i have to have a dream that is playing in my head 24/7. the same dream that i've seen ever since i took my first breath. it's the reason i was put on the earth. in the end i hope that i'm understood and i hope that just one person's passion is sparked with how i play the game.
"But at nighttime, when there was nothing to do, and the house was all empty, I'd always think of Jenny." -Forrest Gump
p.s. you know bob marley believed that you could cure racism by injecting love and music into people's lives.
