i want to be the best

i worked my upper body out today for the first time in 9 weeks. this weekend i could feel my body telling me to get things going. i felt this same way around the time i was supposed to take my sling off. it's crazy how your body will literally "talk" to you, if you know how to listen. i've never been more excited or motivated in my life. i want to be the best baseball player in the world. that thought has consumed my every thought. it's now my life. ever since i decided to have surgery and begin a comeback, i haven't wanted to be unreasonable. to play in the major leagues is a dream of mine. it's been this way ever since my first memory. what i don't understand is why you have to peak at 17-18 years old. i didn't peak at that time in my life. hell, i didn't hit puberty until sophomore year of high school. how was i supposed to peak physically 2 years after hitting puberty? i've gained prob an inch in height and 15 pounds in weight. my muscles are more mature and my knowledge of training is vast. i've stayed in shape for the past 4 years, and my competitive nature is still burning inside. so i'm committing myself to achieving my dream. the dr. asked me yesterday what my objective in rehab was. i told him, "to sling a baseball." i've experienced what tiger discussed last week in his return. tiger talked about having stability in his swing. after having his left knee reconstructed he said he forgot how good it felt to have a normal knee. i had that same experience on tuesday. i was doing 45 degree front raises with 2 pound weights. this puts a ton of strain on the labrum. i could feel my right shoulder staying in place and not slipping. it was an amazing feeling to have confidence back in my shoulder. before i hurt my shoulder in high school, my arm was invincible. once i was warm, i could sling it however long i wanted. that's the kind of recovery i'm going for.

i hope that arod has surgery on his hip. he tore his labrum in his hip. i'm confused as to how he didn't go see the dr. in the off season. i'm not one to throw around blame, but it doesn't look like he was focused. i hope he can get better without surgery, but i don't think so. his injury is a wear and tear injury. he's been swinging with his hips nearly his whole life. he needs to be out 3-4 months and not have to worry about it again for the rest of his career. that's my two cents, but i'm not a dr. i guess the bright side is that he is seeing a dr. in vail, CO. that's not a bad place to be.

There's a big ufc card this weekend. I have rampage knocking jardine out. I have gabriel gonzaga beating shane carwin.

eggs, bacon, potatoes w/ onions tomorrow for b'fast club. gnight