it's been awhile....

with a title like that, and growing up in the late 90's; i couldn't resist a little staind.



I love to blog. in some areas of life i don't have a lot of patience. i still struggle with that right now. when i see something i want, i want it right then and there. i've wanted to blog or a while now. this is just the first time i've really been able to sit down and commit to one.

a couple posts back i posted some little wayne lyrics. i grew up in bham, AL and lived there till I was 18. so posting those lyrics with "crude" words and all was really ballsy of me. that's what this blog is about. i don't want people to look at weezy as a thug. if you know what is going on in his life, his lyrics make sense. from mtvnews.com, wayne's tour bus contained 4 ounces of marijuana, more more than 1 ounce of cocaine, 41 grams of ecstasy, drug paraphernalia, $22,000 in cash and a .40-caliber pistol that was registered to Wayne in Florida, where he has a concealed-weapons permit. so when he says, " you should let your money talk for you;" you understand why he says that. i relish lil wayne's lyrics. his ability to take his life and put it in a rhyme is therapy. there is a lot of wisdom in his lyrics. example given, "no sitting at the table if you bringing nothing to it," and "Yeah when I was fourteen I told my mom we will see better days And sure enough I got Miss Cita in a better place When I was fourteen I told my mom we will see better days And sure enough we did exactly what I say." the more i listen to wayne, the more he gives me a glimpse into wayne's world. haha in closing, bow your head and.....Let's pray(let's pray-juelz) 10 finga(10 fingas) 2getha for, for eva(for eva)
Let's pray(let's pray) 2getha, for eva.
Iight!

haha that's wayne too.

most everyday i'm asked how i'm doing. i really have no clue how to respond? what do people want to hear? i already have a problem with people saying things just b/c that's what everyone else says. on top of that, it just seems so insincere. every time i've told the truth people have squirmed like i threw ice down their back. the truth is, i'm livin. day to day, i just keep livin. the LORD has been with me every step of the way. i'm a business major at auburn now. so i've gone from civil engineering, to landscape architecture, and now business. this is my third year in college, i would say i'm about a semester behind. so i'm on a good enough track. i'm done worrying about when i'm getting out of school. i'll get out when i get out. what do i want to do when i get older? i have no idea. i figure i'll figure that one out when i get there. i'm learning what lasts in life. i'm learning what will be gone tomorrow. i want to invest in the long term things. i am not going to do anything really physical for a month. i've been working out 4-6 days a week for 3 years and it has worn my body down. i'm also going to a chiropractor today for the second time. one of the lasting things in life is health. i have incredible health. despite the occasional pain, i'm always feeling good. this was evident to me when i filled out the paper work at the chiropractor and he looked at me and was like, "why are you here?" i go to the doctor today at 2 to get an antibiotic for my cough. i was down just about all weekend. i hope that whoever reads this goes outside and enjoys the sunset today. i'm going to find what burns inside me. until next time....