carter jr.....

"I'm a certified gangster. Haters make me nauseous. The money makes me anxious. Listen how my words are poetic like Langston. Dreads down my back like I come straight from Kingston. But I come from [[w:Hollygrove|Hollygrove], 17 Danger Zone. So many C Notes I could sing a song. T-Top coop looking like a thong. Your girl on my thing treats it like a bone. I don't wanna be right if getting high is wrong. My eyes so low I look like im from Hong-Kong."
"Throw Some Keys" (Track 6)

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i introduced a friend to ya'll recently. i put it in a way to make everyone who reads it in some kind of thought process. this world is so cruel to everyone. some people will stop at all costs to make their shit go away and expose others. open minded people tend to stick around me more than close minded people. i was thinking recently about the presidential election. i feel that this world is changing. i believe that ideals are changing and i believe that people are beginning to see a need for a new direction. i am by no means "backing" a candidate, this is just pure "evolution." for years, humans have been adapting. polio, malaria, torn acl's, and hepatitis A used to be horrible sicknesses that had the ability to kill people. these days there are vaccines and surgeries that give humans a longer life. this is example of adaptation. i saw the incredible hulk this week. in the movie the doctor was able to turn "the hulk" on and off. his "sickness" is caused by gamma radiation (that is the extent of my knowledge of the hulk). i really enjoyed the movie. i believe that this is the direction humans are going. humans don't have a choice. cancer is killing 135,000 people a year. if you look at the amount of technology that has developed since the beginning of time, humans will continue to adapt and overcome disease, etc. it is the way things have happened throughout history and you know what they say, "history repeats itself." speaking of history. my personal opinion is that everything that happened 1 second ago is history. most people would say, duh! let me explain. humans who live in the past aren't adapting. this world changes every day. if you aren't gaining knowledge every day. if you aren't learning about current pop culture, worldviews, new religions, etc. you are doing nothing but falling further and further behind. then these "lost" people are trying to give opinions about how things used to be, bullshit. i don't care about how things used to be, i care about how things are right now. if you aren't willing to hustle and gain knowledge, then choose who you bore with your old news. my new friend is Dwayne Michael Carter Jr. aka Young Money aka Weezy F Baby aka Young Mulah, he helps get me through the day. haha! in closing, fuck cancer and everything like it. you do nothing but ruin everything you touch, bring tears to my eyes and pain to my heart. jk livin

blood diamond and the earth....

I had an opportunity to see the end of this movie tonight (again). This time I had a different point of view. This scene is a description of my life at the moment. Everyone is trying to get ahead, to win the race. The finish line is there for Dicaprio and Hoonsou, they can both see it. They have endured so much to get to this point. Dicaprio is unable to continue on the journey. He had no choice and with tears in his eyes, he gave up the diamond to Hoonsou. Hoonsou did right with the diamond and justice was served. Dicaprio has a legend that lives on after he has died. This movie represents America in the tragedy. I wonder why Dicaprio, Hoonsou, his son, and Maddy can't enjoy the perks of having such a big diamond. I guess that is where the "fallen" part of man comes in. Good things have to come to an end. That is one of the most depressing things about being on this planet. Just when you think that things are looking up, something happens and blows up your happiness. I don't understand why that is always there? The scene brings a tear to my eye for it's romantic pull. The conversation is pure. Both people, who met b/c fate put them together, are mutually attracted to each other and everything they say is so heartfelt. In a time such as this conversation, both characters understood that this would be the last time they would speak. They let it all hang out. I can't imagine how awesome conversations would be if everyone spoke this way in all conversations. That is what I want to find. In all of this sadness you are feeling for what Maddy is going through. She has no way of knowing what might have been with Dicaprio. She has to live in complete uncertainty. That is a rough feeling. You also are very happy that Hoonsou and his family are reunited. As far as we know, Hoonsou and his family live happily ever after. So many emotions are wrapped into this scene. That is why it is so great. Not to mention that Dicaprio nails the South African accent the entire movie. He is a great actor. I hope cyberspace enjoys the scene as much as I have.

my new friend....

i want to introduce my new friend to cyberspace. this is a relationship that caught me by surprise. i used to have animosity toward this person. i admit complete fault there. i made a mistake and judged someone before i really knew them. i admit that i make mistakes every day. i hope that i have enough security in myself to admit fault when i am wrong. once i realized that i really didn't know this person, things started to come together. this person is pretty controversial. he/she may not have the most uplifting diction. he/she may have some tattoos, which is funny b/c in AL people immediately judge you b/c you might have some tattoos or a piercing. he/she may not hang around the church going crowd all of the time. he/she may have a couple bad habits. he/she may not be white or black. he/she may use private jets and contribute to the bullshit al gore calls global warming. on top of that, he/she doesn't care that they fly in private jets. he/she attempts to be the best person that they can be on a daily basis. he/she told me that they get on their knees every morning and every night b/c they know that's where they need to be. he/she may have grown up in the hood, suburbs, or a mansion. he/she is a poet. he/she may or may not be educated by the world's standards. he/she seems to be loyal. he/she may or may not have a drug problem. hell, i may or may not have a couple bad habits. he/she knows that their shit stinks. he/she has a legendary work ethic. he/she may be a millionaire. he/she's judge is God. he/she wears their heart on their sleeve. he/she is really flashy.

enough of the introduction for now. i think a lot of this person so their introduction might have to continue at a later date. i am going through a lot right now. i hope that i grow every day. i hope that the people in my life will tell me if i offend them so that i can create restitution. this world is fallen and everyone will hurt you. i want the people in my life to ask forgiveness when they hurt me. i know that i have to ask forgiveness when i hurt people. that is a very hard thing to do b/c pride always gets in the way. i'm tired of people thinking that their shit doesn't stink. i'm tired of people thinking that they don't need people in their life. i'm tired of people thinking that they are better than others. i'm tired of people playing games and sucking on people like a leech. damn leeches sucking just to get what they want, then they leave people bleeding and just walk away. i want to truth to prevail and for only the truth to be spoken. so many people in this world have no backbone. when time's get hard around them they crawl in their turtle shell. they don't know that their shell ain't nothing but cardboard. my new friend is real with me, honest to a fault, and is always there day or night. there are a couple people in this world who are that close to me.

"i'd rather be alone and happy, than together and not." -mcconaughey

i hope that by the introduction you still don't know who it is b/c you shouldn't. i hope that you haven't judge my friend. if you have, you belong with most people i know. but if you haven't, and understand meet Dwayne.