victim and getting the hook up?

I found out some pretty bad news on friday afternoon. My mom was having numbness in her face. She had some scans done to identify where the problem was. The results showed that she has a tumor on her c1 vertebrae. This is the first vertebrae in your head/neck. If this vertebrae collapses like the last one did, then she will suffocate. There's no getting around that. The doctor's have taken her off of chemo and put her on radiation. The oncologist is trying to pin point the tumor and kill it or reduce it's size so that the tumor won't kill her. I take this information pretty hard. It makes my life very confusing. I don't really know how to go about life after this news. I say all of these things b/c this is real life. I don't live in fantasy land. I don't live in an altered state. I live in real life. The only place where there is no pain and suffering is HEAVEN. That is why we are not home yet! With all of this going on, I'm not a victim. I don't have to be treated like a victim. I appreciate people caring about me, I just don't have to be a victim. The biggest thing I need right now is for people to understand what I am going through. Understanding what I'm going through will be the best thing that anyone can do.

The "hook-up." It is better to give than to receive. I love to give to people and I love to put smiles on people's faces. Just b/c I give a lot doesn't mean that I'm going to always be given back to. It always interests me when you hook someone up and then that person can't hook you up. I just make it happen. I learned to make things happen while I was starting a business with my Dad. Sometimes you just have to make it happen, no matter what. There is something to say for hooking people up and then not getting it in return. You live, learn, and forgive. jk livin