spring.....

my mom told me a couple weeks ago, "this is your time of year." she told that to me as i was listening to the Auburn baseball team take bp for their opening game. i could hear the bat, smell the grass, and feel the emotion of playing the game of baseball. not one day has gone by since i played my last game that i have not missed baseball. i've never felt alive like i did when i was on the diamond. i was in my element. everything felt like second nature and natural. i was in the "zone". lately i've been down. the weather has been beautiful and i am blessed beyond belief. i still feel down. i think that the spring just takes me back to the days when i was playing ball. i think that i miss it so much that i'm a little down about it. i could definitely go without having to pass by the baseball field every day. sometimes you get in a funk. sometimes you are up and other days you are down. i am going to keep living and breathing. i hope to enjoy the weather as much as possible. i'm not sure if there will be a day that i will ever not miss baseball. sometimes i wish there would be a day where i would be able to not miss it anymore. then when i really think about it, i wouldn't want that. the pain takes me back to those glory days. it takes me back to the smell and feeling of playing ball. i hope to always be able to go back there. i still remember my first home run, i still remember those plays where it is all instincts and you don't really know how everything happen, i still remember the nerves before a playoff game, i still remember how good it felt to run the bases. oh how i wish i could triple and score on a passed ball just one more time. or see fat boy double off the wall in a playoff game and i could hear the ball going over my head and coach wilder is jumping waving his arm, "score, score, score!" thank god for the memories that are so vivid they can bring tears to your eyes. i guess what i've learned even writing this blog is to jk livin through all times. when times are tough think back on the memories that put a smile on your face. when it comes down to it, the good memories will be the ones to get you out of a funk.

p.s. last night was crunk