life......

i hope that a majority of the people in this world enjoy life as much as myself. i haven't had the greatest start to '08. it has had it's ups and downs. i've learned a lot this year. i can't allow the downs to get me to far down, and when the good times come; i have to enjoy them as much as i can. i hope the people i am around can see me for who i am. what i mean by that is to see inside someone's heart and try to hear what their heart is saying. i hope that i do that to the people that i'm around. my man mcconaughey is on the cover of this month's men's health. of course i had to buy it. the magazine is ok, it's not the best i've ever read. anyway, what my man said. "he boils his decisions down to one simplicity. i don't like to leave crumbs, i like to do things right, and not cheat to get 'em done. that's what a man does. i don't owe anybody anything. i never go anywhere and worry, oh shit so and so is here. i don't have crumbs in my past." i thought that was one of the greatest lessons i've ever heard. i have crumbs in my past that i hate. i learned before i read this that you have to make sure that you don't leave crumbs. when i think about not leaving crumbs, it changes the way i deal with just about everything. if i don't leave crumbs in my past, i can see something that reminds me of the past, or have a memory of the past and just smile about it. to me that is what life is all about. there are going to be things that go your way and things that don't go your way. i am going to fail at something, or completely screw up something; but if i have done the right thing and not left any crumbs, i'm able to look back on whatever it is and smile. life is beautiful. if i can't look at life as beautiful, what do i have? part of seeing life as beautiful is looking past people on the surface and finding out who they truly are on the inside. when you get on the inside, it's looking for the good and excusing the bad.