iceman.....

the iceman is chuck liddell. chuck is the UFC (Ultimate Fighting Championships) most popular fighter and the best light heavyweight of all time. if you saw chuck before a fight say at the pre-fight press conference or at his pre-fight interview, he would most likely intimidate you. he says things like, "i'm going to knock him out, or i'm going to hurt him." that leaves me thinking that i'm not going to mess with him. i thought that until i saw chuck get punk'd on mtv. he was the calmest person i've ever seen get punk'd. he was pleading his case and trying to make the person understand that he was innocent. one would think that chuck would get pissed and just knock everyone out. chuck is called the iceman b/c he is ice cold all of the time. he is an even tempered guy. i'm sure that he is not like that in the ring, but someone is trying to take his face off. you can't really rattle chuck outside of the ring. i'm the opposite of chuck. after seeing him be so calm, i'm trying to emulate that type of demeanor. i've seen people get pissed off and lose their cool. there is nothing good or attractive about that. i hope to be more like the iceman.

life......

i hope that a majority of the people in this world enjoy life as much as myself. i haven't had the greatest start to '08. it has had it's ups and downs. i've learned a lot this year. i can't allow the downs to get me to far down, and when the good times come; i have to enjoy them as much as i can. i hope the people i am around can see me for who i am. what i mean by that is to see inside someone's heart and try to hear what their heart is saying. i hope that i do that to the people that i'm around. my man mcconaughey is on the cover of this month's men's health. of course i had to buy it. the magazine is ok, it's not the best i've ever read. anyway, what my man said. "he boils his decisions down to one simplicity. i don't like to leave crumbs, i like to do things right, and not cheat to get 'em done. that's what a man does. i don't owe anybody anything. i never go anywhere and worry, oh shit so and so is here. i don't have crumbs in my past." i thought that was one of the greatest lessons i've ever heard. i have crumbs in my past that i hate. i learned before i read this that you have to make sure that you don't leave crumbs. when i think about not leaving crumbs, it changes the way i deal with just about everything. if i don't leave crumbs in my past, i can see something that reminds me of the past, or have a memory of the past and just smile about it. to me that is what life is all about. there are going to be things that go your way and things that don't go your way. i am going to fail at something, or completely screw up something; but if i have done the right thing and not left any crumbs, i'm able to look back on whatever it is and smile. life is beautiful. if i can't look at life as beautiful, what do i have? part of seeing life as beautiful is looking past people on the surface and finding out who they truly are on the inside. when you get on the inside, it's looking for the good and excusing the bad.

global warming.....

if global warming is true then God created something that is not perfect. if he created something that is not perfect, then he is not perfect. if he is not perfect, then nothing about his message is perfect. why would you believe in something that had this many holes? i wish that i could expound, but that's the fact.

the blog for today....

i don't have time to blog about this right now, but i have my topic. "you don't know me, and you don't wear my chains." that's freaking beautiful!!!!
these lyrics come from Augustana's song "Boston." lately i've been thinking about what i think when i see people. i'm not talking about judging people, i'm talking about seeing THEM. it's interesting to think about. when you see someone you can see how they are dressed, what their hair looks like, body type, are you attracted to them, etc. these are all physical things. it's funny how you can see so many people and not really see them. if you are seeing someone on the outside, then what about the inside? i guess that is why we have relationships with people so that we can express the inside. i don't think that there are many things better than the pure, inside emotions of someone. it expresses how they truly feel and who they really are. sometimes i wish that i could see on the inside of people. the outside gets bland. you may see someone everyday, and you may think that you have them figured out; but you can't see the inside. i hope that people can see others for what is on the inside and really get to know them b/c of that.
these lyrics make me think of something else...."you don't wear my chains." i think that sympathy doesn't get enough use these days. when you see someone's chains, you may think that you know how they feel, but you don't. you can't know until you've worn their chains. i believe that showing sympathy to someone needs to be a thoughtful process. everyone needs to learn how to show sympathy to others. i hate it when people show sympathy the same way to everyone and they end up pissing you off instead of helping you. i hope that i'm sensitive to the chains people around me may be wearing. peace

ryan sheckler's friends

man, two blogs in one day. i don't want anyone to get spoiled. i love the show "life of ryan." i really enjoy watching it, and he is an extremely talented skater. his friends drive me crazy. it seems that they are all whining about how they never get to see him. i'm like really, you don't get to see him b/c he is one of the most popular athletes today. i believe that if i was ryan that i would be sick and tired of friends whining all the time. i don't understand why they can't enjoy the time that they have with him. i'm not sure that they can enjoy their time with him b/c they are always bitching about being alone and junk. they could go find another friend? that is just something that has bothered me. in the grand scheme of things, my opinion doesn't matter; but this is my blog. peace

adventure.......

i feel like i have a lack of adventure in my life. i don't really have a cure either. i just feel like i'm in a rut, like i do the same things day in and day out. i know that i'm in school and that's what you do, yea, i've heard it all. life is too short for life to not be adventurous. my good buddy invited me to costa rica here in the near future, that trip can't come soon enough. LA can't come soon enough either. i think that i need to do something adventurous today, tomorrow, and the next day. i really need to do something adventurous this summer. i've been taking a full class load for what will be 16 months, with no more than 2 week breaks at a time. i guess that has taken a toll on me. i've done a pretty good job trying to catch up in school. i think that i'm done playing catch up. maybe i can line a job up in the bahamas this summer? if you know me, you know that into the blue is my favorite movie, and it was filmed in the bahamas. life is a whole lot more fun when you wake up in the morning and you don't know what adventure is in store for you on that day.

i had a bad day again......

i just had that song pop into my head as i was getting ready to bang out this blog. i don't intend for this to be an extremely personal blog. i am a very honest person, but i'm not an open book. with that said, today was not one of my greatest days. as i was extremely pissed off, (which i have come to hate and i don't do it very often anymore) rascal flatts came on the radio. it instantly put a smile on my face. that's what your favorite musical group should be able to do not matter what is going on. once i heard them, i perked up. gary levox can still sing, and i'm very happy about that. that's all i have for today.

the f word.....

i can't think of a more vulgar word than the f word. it gets thrown around pretty non-chalantly these days. i am guilty of throwing it around on occasion. i think that the f word needs to be saved for times where it is called for. when i think about a time for it to be called for, i think about the world. the world is f'd up. i think about so many things that happen in the world on a daily basis and the only way to describe it is to say that the world is f'd up. my mom has terminal cancer, that's f'd up. my dad just told me he has a tenant that smoked weed in jail everyday for 12 years. that's f'd up. the natalie holloway case is f'd up. the world is f'd up. i think the more that we realize that the world is f'd up, the more we see how wicked satan is. seeing as how he just wants things more f'd up. the world is trying to drag you down. you just have to trek the f* on.

promises......

i sure do love blogging. it seems that something will just pop into my head and i have to write it down. maybe blogging will take the place of me talking to myself, probably not? i was watching shawshank redemption tonight and promises are a huge part at the end of the movie. morgan freeman is having a hard time dealing with life after prison. the only thing that kept him hanging on was a promise he made to andy. i don't really think that promises like that exist today. he made a promise to andy and he was going to go through with it. i wonder if i could make a promise to someone and them really know that i was going to keep it? think if i told someone that i was going to do something. that something might happen a year from now. what if that person trusted me so much that he/she never doubted, ever, that i was going to come through and fulfill my promise. that kind of trust blows my mind. i think that's how it was in the old days, like before telephones. if you wanted to meet someone, you told them, "i'll meet you here at this time and place." you really had no way of telling them any different until the meeting time came. i wish that i could go back to those times. i believe that people would be more honest with their words, and more sincere with their time. think about if you planned to have dinner with the hot farm girl in the next town. if you planned the dinner a week in advance, you would have to build your schedule around that meeting. too many times these days people just call on their cell phone and reschedule. i'm not sure i really like that. another line in the movie talks about how it seems everyone in the world just got in a big, damn hurry. that's why i like jk livin so much. a lot of that lifestyle is just living life. life seems to get so busy at times. busy life should be a damn crime. you should be able to enjoy the sun coming up with a cup of coffee. most of the time you can't b/c you were so tired from the day before, or you were up late getting a project ready for the next day. you should be able to stop and have a conversation with a good friend. most of the time you can't b/c you have somewhere to be. you should be able to enjoy the sunset in the great outdoors. i wish that i could do that. i can't b/c i'm in class while it gets dark. i believe that this is a snipit of why i want to be an island boy so bad. mr. mcconaughey and i want to be able to enjoy the simple things in life and just keep livin. i understand that i can't change the world that we live in. i have to adapt everyday to what this world brings. i hope to always be able to keep the simple things in mind. i hope that i have close friends who i can make a promise to and they will know that i'm going to fulfill it. i'll make a promise right now. one day i will have an airstream and i will drive it cross country. i will enjoy the simple things in life and i will love every minute. jk livin