I'm sure that one could come up with many different meanings of "real." I'm not into philosophy. I believe that there is a time and place for everything. In this circumstance, I believe that it's better to just take a "forrest gump" look at being real. I'm the type of person who can't hide feelings. If I have something that is going on inside me, I can't hide it. Now, if I know that someone is going to ask that I don't really want to know then I'll hide it. That's not very often. For the most part, if something is eating at me, I have to get it out. So being real for me isn't so hard. I have just grown up being an honest person. I believe that if you don't put yourself 100% in something then you won't benefit from it. When I think about putting myself into something worthwhile, I think about relationships. When it comes down to the nitty gritty of life, you only have relationships. I try to put 100% of myself in every relationship that I have. That means 100% effort, time, honesty, caring, forgiveness. I try to make every person who is around me feel like I want them around. I do that b/c I have been treated the opposite of that in the past and it sucks to be that way. If you are someone who can hide feelings, don't open up easily, haven't been real your whole life, then why not start now? I can't see any other way to be in life than 100% honest. It makes you vulnerable. I've learned more from making myself vulnerable and being hurt than any other time in my life. I hate putting myself out there, and I hate being hurt; but I've been through it before and so I know it's not gonna kill me. I just think about how much I'll benefit from a relationship if I put 100% into it, than if I don't. I'm not saying to be an open book. There are certain things that only certain people should know. But if you don't allow yourself to be honest, then you'll live your whole life behind this facade that no one can seem to get through.
-Just got some great news from a great friend. It's about time bud! I couldn't be more happy for you.
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I will be keeping up with your blog! Terminal cancer with your mom--- I knew she had breast cancer at one time- What is going on now? Is Candice doing well? and the baby? Praying. He is good.
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